I helped Frank because it was the right thing to do. He wasn't the monster they were trying to make him out to be. If he had wanted me dead that day he shot at me, I wouldn't be here right now. But he's not the kind of man that kills people who don't deserve it. What he did to the people he did kill? I think he probably does deserve to be in prison if you look at it from a legal perspective, but I learned a little before I met him that you can't depend on the legal system to do the right thing. It's just as corrupt as the people Frank killed in the name of revenge.
I'm not as good as you think I am, Kamala. Do you want to know the reason Frank and I connected so quickly when we took on his case? Frank has a lot of darkness inside him. Something inside of me is the same. Things have happened to me, horrible things. I've killed someone before. It's been my fault that other people have died. So please, don't want to be like me. You're so much more brave than I could ever be. Do you know how strong you are to be able to survive here at sixteen?
[That effectively broke her rose-colored glasses re: Karen.] I... didn't know any of that stuff about you or even suspect it. Frank basically has dark backstory written on his forehead. You? Wow. I... really didn't see this coming. I'm not really sure what to say.
[Karen's nervous, afraid that being honest and opening up means she's going to lose someone else she cares about. She probably shouldn't say anything else and just let Kamala process everything in her own time.
But Karen rarely does what she really should do.]
I can tell you that I killed someone in self-defense like it would make a difference. When I was getting too close to uncovering truths, I was taken. Threatened. I was afraid he was going to kill me when he put a gun out on a table. So I found a way to get my hands on it, and I took care of him before he could lay another finger on me.
Saving myself doesn't make it any better. So I'd understand if you're bothered enough to not want me around anymore.
[This response come about an hour later. She's typed and retyped this until she's positive she got it right.] Karen, I'm not the kind of person who has double standards about this stuff. I believe what Frank did was wrong and one day he's going to answer for it, but that doesn't mean I should abandon him until that time comes. I love him just like I love you. I'm not going to throw you away because something bad happened and you did something I couldn't do to save yourself. I'm not here to judge anyone or act like I'm better than them unless they're acting like total psychos and threatening the lives of people I'm supposed to protect.
I'm sorry if I made you feel that way. You just surprised me. I didn't know you'd been through something like that.
If anyone would understand it would be him. And it's okay you know. I know the powers thing isn't as traumatic by a long shot, but it's not like I tell people about the night I "awoke" or how that went down really. Some things are just... really personal. I'm glad you shared that with me so I can understand you a little bit better.
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I'm not as good as you think I am, Kamala. Do you want to know the reason Frank and I connected so quickly when we took on his case? Frank has a lot of darkness inside him. Something inside of me is the same. Things have happened to me, horrible things. I've killed someone before. It's been my fault that other people have died. So please, don't want to be like me. You're so much more brave than I could ever be. Do you know how strong you are to be able to survive here at sixteen?
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But Karen rarely does what she really should do.]
I can tell you that I killed someone in self-defense like it would make a difference. When I was getting too close to uncovering truths, I was taken. Threatened. I was afraid he was going to kill me when he put a gun out on a table. So I found a way to get my hands on it, and I took care of him before he could lay another finger on me.
Saving myself doesn't make it any better. So I'd understand if you're bothered enough to not want me around anymore.
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I'm sorry if I made you feel that way. You just surprised me. I didn't know you'd been through something like that.
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Everyone has a past. I just don't talk about mine. I don't think I've ever even talked about this with Frank.
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